When the Autumn Ends!!
It's autumn and I know the dark cold winter is on it's way but I am still happy with the colors I see and the vibes I feel. Orange and brown and pink and yellow everywhere; I see the colors and think how beautiful the world has become. I wish to hold onto the cool breeze that touches my skin in these peaceful evenings and makes me feel alive, yet I know how excruciating these same evenings are about to be: very very soon. I know my soul is going to freeze and I am gonna have to numb my heart because this is what happens when autumn ends, it brings a never ending winter; cold and dark and painful. I often ask myself why don't I ever let the autumn pass as it should and try to immerse my whole existence in it. Maybe my brain is not functional or maybe my heart feels too much, whatever it is, I fall for the colors; I fall hard. Even when I know how these orange and pink leaves are gonna change into grey and pierce my soul with every inch remaining, I keep saying myself "