Mess of my Soul

  Walking silently beside you in a moment of complete peace Mind created a beautiful world that nobody can seize Seeing the silence of flare with the feeling of faith I saw you in between my prayers Without the fear of death......

I woke up with an unease pain in my soul today. It felt heavy.

The day you decide to acknowledge the existence of my love, I am gonna tell you how much I have missed you in this moment and how much my soul has longed for your presence. Not anything very special has happened yet this night seems special because I am sleeping under the sky, full of stars, bright and shining and this makes me miss you. Well, I don't know why sky makes me miss you this much, even when it is dark and gloomy or when it smiles with moon and stars around, but it does. I wish you were here with me, out of my soul, in present. We would stare at those tiny stars together. I would probably hold your hands and share your silence. I would steal a tender kiss and make those stars jealous as I would have my moon on my side, with me, in real. I feel like I could give up anything to be with you, here together, in this moment, to share this night under this sky. It sounds stupid to my ears but yes, I am waiting for this night to come again when there will be you and me. What if

Travelling like a lunatic I try to forget you For a little while But again I see you in that blue sky in rays of rising sun and in colors of setting sun Memories start creeping in and The gulmohar whispers...........

"Why did you touch me?", I have wanted to ask you this, directly when my eyes are looking at your face to see whether you will think of an answer or just turn your eyes away from me like you did for days after days. But I did not ask. I could have but I knew your indifference to that question would again crush my heart. Now, while writing this, I am slowly playing every second I spent in your presence, to realize how hurtful every moment has been. No, not every moment, at least not the day I met you for the first time. I was excited to see you, finally and I had heard you were too. But now I think of, you may not have been excited at all. I wouldn't call our first meeting warm, you didn't smile or speak much. Our "Hi" was awkward. When you took the key from the counter and showed me to my room, I felt safe. It was a nice gesture when you opened the door for me and said, "I will be here, you go and freshen up". That kindness was more than enough aft

  I saw you Moving far, far from me Full of big bushes & trees Hidden in the mid-jungle That I couldn’t see   Waiting you to turn back & get me in your arms tight Eyes got filled with tears & body trembled with fear Which I couldn’t hide   Continuous from my eyes Tears started to roll It is because I love you It was hard to hear you bye Keeping you within me and my eyes   Leaving me so far behind You kept on moving ahead Untouched with my sobs I kept on looking you moving And nothing was getting in my head   Forgetting each and everything I started to shout & scream Wrenched heart ached & head kept on saying "No no no, it is just a bad dream"............